Oh Haii Thar.

Hello Blog, it has been too long since i last wrote in you... Oh how things have changed. My boyfriend, he is doing good, i am doing good. Although, Thaine is not. He broke it off with Opal, mostly cause, after me and him talked for a bit, him telling me, that he didnt have the same feelings anymore, i just simply told him, if he doesnt love her anymore, there is no reason for you to stay, and the longer you wait to do it, the more its going to hurt her in the end. So yeah, they broke up, then a day before Valentine's day, Thaine got jumped. He got Beaten up, he was maced, and beaten with a weapon also. The weapon was believed to be a sprinkler i think. I wasnt really worried about Thaine though, cause, if thaine really wanted to... He could have easily beaten him up, but Thaine didnt fight back. Here's a few words he said... "I hope i didnt hurt his fist with my face... i might have hurt his weapon with my face though...." ... Yeah, he's crazy. Oh and this past Tuesday, Opal and Deseray got in a feud, where, three security guards had to stop it, and Thaine had to jump in, so Opal wouldnt do anything. Out of Thaine's words "Opal, i wouldnt want to fight Des, she can beat you up!". As we were walking back to Campus, Me, Brittany, Thaine, and some other people. Thaine got caught up by Opal, and i turn around to check, and i saw Opal Hit Thaine, after seeing him say something, but i couldnt hear him from distance, she slaps him again, and Thaine, he isnt the type of guy to hit a girl, and by the look on his face, it looked kind of angry, but i knew he wouldnt hit her.... Then Brittany jumps in and pushes Opal off. Then another security guard comes in. After that, we had to leave behind Thaine and go back to Campus. Thaine did catch up in a couple of minutes though. Apparently, the guard could have charger Thaine with Assault, even though he didnt do SHIT to Opal. There has also been rumours about Opal, Like how she spat in a teachers face. Or How she sent the guy to beat up Thaine, but those are just rumours...

My Big Bro, Wolfe, he's drawing our fursona's,  and his idea is to have my fursona, behind him, and hes going to be sitting in a chair, and im going to be pouncing him. I think its going to be cute. Wolfe, he's helped me ever since Derrik broke up with me. I tell him everything, cause, he gets mad when i dont. He really is, overly protective over me, like i am his little brother.
"ich Liebe mein bruder, und im froh, daß er ist hier für mich" - "I love my brother, and i am pleased that he is here for me."

Oh how i can go on and on in german, simply, cause for some reason, i like that language, always have. i was going to talk about something else, but i have forgotten what.... if i remember, i'll post it in the next one....

*Sighh*

Hopefully, this time around, you wont do anything stupid, and i wont. Cause, i love you soo much, that if i lose you again, i dont know what i would do. You mean a lot to me, i hope you see that. Derrik and I are dating again, so yeah, things got a shine of light for a bit. Happy Face.

On the other hand, i am sick again, so yeah. This sucks. I hate being sick, but who doesnt? School, is pretty depressing, i actually hate it, i was so going to take online schooling, but my friends wont let me, sad face. I could go on and on about how life is depressing, but frankly, i dont want to do it. So yeah, figure out yourself on how life is sad. There are many reason's if you look hard enough, but thats not the point of life, the point of life is getting past the flaws and onto the perfections. I lost my story, my new story series called "Amnesia" like, i dont know where i put it, or where i left it... so yeah, im going to have to keep looking, and if i dont find it, i'll have to restart the story, and i was on chapter two! Sad face. Anyway, with each passing day, the world keeps revolving, the earth keeps moving, life keeps dwindling down its days. Time stops for no man, so keep that in mind, and live life to its fullest! Since i dont have much to talk about... this will be a short blog. Until further ado, i'll see you, my faithful blog readers, next time :) <--- Hahaha, i know, that was pretty lamee :)

Dreams .

So apparently, things are starting to get better, and normal again. Which is good, and bad. Good because, things were alright when it was normal, sucky thing, i was single so yeah. Bad because, I have nightmares a lot when everything is normal, and frankly, i dont think people like nightmares. They can be so real, so intense, so dramatizing.

Last night's nightmare, was crazy. I was trying to get evidence or something so i can send my neighbor to jail cause he was a killer or something. I was snooping around in his house, and he catches me, and i guess, he sent someone after me before, and i survived it obviously and the killer was like "I see your not actually dead, even though my assassin claimed to see you die with his own eyes. Traitor.". All of a sudden, i get this fear, this voice in my head telling me to run, get out of there before its too late, and as i try to run, he pushes me back. Brings me into the bathroom, and he starts stabbing into me with his knife, i count, Once, twice, three times, four times, and a final time. All stabs were in my stomach and abdomen area. I could feel myself dying. I actually thought i was dead. Laying there, motionless, he leaves the room, and i get up and clutch my stomach. Looking at my stained red hands. I decide to leave, unknowingly that he took all my possessions from my pocket and put them on the counter and took my shoes. I quickly run out of the bathroom and out the door, as fast as i could, bleeding. Running down the street, i am quickly reaching my home. Getting there, my sisters outside along with some of my other family, i go up to her crying trying to tell her that i was stabbed, she laughs and continues on to what ever she was doing, i knew i didnt have much time before he notices im gone and comes over to my house. I run inside, scared. Running into my room, i look at my window to see someone opening it from the other side, i shut it quickly and lock it, but somehow he opens it a little again, so i slam it closed and lock it again, watching him, watch me. Having this fear run all through my body, i could still feel the pain in my stomach, rushing out into the kitchen, i find my grandma there, telling her that i was almost killed, she laughs, until i show her all my wounds. Then i could hear him come in, and i tell her that, thats who tried to kill me. I stand behind her, and he walks up the stairs "Can i see your 19 year old grandson Glen?" i weakly show myself "Im not nineteen, so i cant be charged or anything, Im fifteen, your going to rot in jail". I could see him walking closer and closer, i close my eyes for a quick second and i awake from my dream, still feeling pain in my stomach, i look to see if there were any scars or any cuts, nope, nothing. Laying there, remembering that my window was open, quickly getting up and closing it as if he was trying to get in again.

It was a crazy dream. I woke up at 4:30am, and jumped out of bed, checked my stomach for any wounds, nothing. Remembering it was a dream. Fell back asleep, my alarm was set for 5:04am. So i only had half hour of sleep, but thought i should use it. I wake up at 5:30am, no alarm, nothing, i look at my clock, to see that the alarm was turned off, but i am the only one here. It doesnt automatically turn off either, and at 4:30am it was turned on. Puzzling, weird. Some mystery's just cant be solved. LOL.