Yes, yes yes YES!

I am completely done ALL of my government exams, YAY! ^_^ . I am happy, now on monday is my new semester, with all new courses! Its like a whole new start! Which is exactly what i need. These past two weeks have been so, stressful, and so stupid. It is slowly getting back to normal though, so its all good (: but yeah, i am pretty normal now, not feeling that sad, as much. Not feeling intense angry, or physcotic . Haha, but then again, i dont think i was physcotic, maybe, maybe not. *wink wink* .... Aha. :3

So yeah, it is officially the weekend for me. No more school, for the weekend anyway. Guess what? I have a date tonight ^_^. I was like, so stokedd on life when he asked me if i wanted to go do something tonight, not like we never did anything, but this is like, the first time were going out out, you know? :P Yeah, so were deciding on what movie we should go see, even though, me and Jacqueline saw all of the movies, the only i haven't seen was like, only one of them, and its rated R. So yeah, either we sneak in, which i do anyway. or we like, do something else. I think it was rated R, i dont even remember what movie it is, so... LOL. Oh, i just checked the cineplex odeon site, i havent seen three of them. "The tooth Fairy" which i do not want to see, "Extraordinary Measures" which doesnt look to bad, and "Leap Year" which i would like to see, but it would be obvious that we are on a date if were going to go see a romantic comendy.  Oh well, i dont really care.

On February 5th, i am soo going to see "Dear John" looks soo epic. I dont care if its a chick flick, im gay, im allowed to like those kind of movies. LOL. even before i knew i was gay, i still liked those movies. Aha. :3 but yeah, me and Jacqueline are probably going to go see that. If i can drag Thaine along, i will ! >:P but yeah, "Dear John" looks just amazing. :) im stokedd on life to go see that! Same with "Shutter Island", i am soo going to go see that too!! Mostly because it looks intense drama, kind of action-ey, suspense, thriller movie. Also it has one of my favourite actors, Leonardo Dicaprio. ^_^

Hopefully All of you guys have an Amazing weekend. I, myself, have a date tonight, so yeah, i am pretty stoked. LOL

Hearts break, Hearts mend, but they will have the scars forever..

Yeah, i have my math exam in a couple hours, thought i would post a blog, since i am bored. I really should be studying, but hey!  Its only my math exam, and im already getting 86% in that class, i could totally just flunk the provincial and still pass the course so its all good. The only thing i should be worried about is my science, cause, first of all, i dont even know what im getting in that class. Second, I dont want to fail, so yeah. Probably going to study for that when i get home. Cause im that cool.

I went and saw that olympic torch thing that came to town, it was cool, saw the torch, even met a furry there! Then we spent the next hour trying to find a glowing bottle because it was a bottle that glowed! Who wouldnt want that... we never found it, but we did find bottles of coke! That were apparently collectors bottles, we thought that, if we somehow put them together, it would form like, the glowing bottle, yeah, we were pretty hyper and stuff...

So apparently, i am in a love triangle.... like, i dont think so buddy... Cause, well, what Thaine is doing, some people think that Thaine is doing it all for me, which is weird, cause Thaine isnt like that.. Then theres him, you guys can call him MuskRat, hes really nice and stuff... Then apparently, Derrik seems interested? I dont really think so, but thats what Wolfe said. I think Derrik is just, I dont know, but i dont really think he wants me back. If he did, i am not allowed to date him again. I am told by Jacqueline and Brittany that im not allowed too, because, that if i did, after what he "did"... i would get beat. So yeah, i am not allowed, i could, i just would have to keep it secret ! Just saying...

I am like actually so excited for this week to be over, mostly cause, i hate exams. The weekend is like, going to be amazing, cause i am going to relax and hang out. Mostly relax since i dont have to worry about any exam, or any problem. So yeah, these past two weeks have been stressful! I need some stress relief, which i did get in the past two nights ^_^ . From when we went to the Olympic Torch, to when we relaxed and did stuff in my room ^^.

7 days later

I had a blog completely done on friday, like actually, it had like 4 paragraphs and i was about to post it when i decided to put a heart on it, so i was going to copy and paste it, then i clicked something that messed it up, and it exited my blog without saving it. I was like disappointed, and i didnt want to re write it all, nor did i have the time. So yeah, that was like on friday, so i really dont know what i wrote.

I had a decent weekend, had to go to my moms, so yeah. Didnt stay home, and chill with friends, had to come down to my moms, so yeah, no visits from my friends. My cousin came with though, so yeah, had some quality family time. Went to Kelowna to the mall, bought some converse :D. Went to go see the movie Legion, it was pretty great, like actually. Whoosh, shooting everywhere, angels attacking, god doesnt believe in man. Apocalyptic movies are awesome.

Have government exams this week, Thursday is my science exam, and friday is my math. I have all week to study, and i should have studied more this weekend, but i barely had any time. Monday and Tuesday is my last day of school really, Wednesday i dont have school, that day is for grade 11's i think that have exams... yeah.

Derrik & I, we were boyfriends, then he broke up with me, I was pretty depressed for a week, today, 7 days later, i am feeling a bit better, Derrik, he was, still is, the most amazing-est guy you could ever ask for, the only thing i regret, is losing him. Any guy he gets, is absolutely lucky to get him, and they should treasure it, or else, they could lose him like i did, and once they lose him, i will always be here, for him. I still love him, just i have to realize that me and him, just will never be. I just hope that, when we grow up, that we are still friends, i want him to be in my life, he is amazing, he is someone you can tell anything, he is someone that you can just be with and have a great time.

Hey guys, i never posted a blog in a long time.

I just got out of a three month relationship, he broke up with me, so yeah for the past three days, i have been crying my eyes out. I am on the road to recovery, I am trying my hardest to get over him, so i can be friends with him again, because right now, even though he offered, i wouldnt be able to, still in love with him, being forced to watch him fall in love with someone new, i wouldnt be able to handle it. So yeah, i am trying to get over him, so i can be friends with him, cause no matter what, i want him in my life. Whether he is my Boyfriend, husband, or best friend. It wont matter, as long as he is here, being himself, then i should be happy, cause him in my life, is awesome, him not being in my life, just wouldnt be the same.

I have goverment exams coming up, yeah, so, i am trying my hardest to find time to study... but with me "being miserable" its not working, so yeah, bad week for exams...

I kind of feel pathetic, I cut myself, in efforts of feeling better, it was a bad idea... so i was told by many, including Derrik, asking me for a promise to never do it again. Its a promise, a hard one, cause, i think about it sometimes now. I know, pretty pathetic. but a dear friend told me, that cutting crayons is fun, and makes you smile... so, i just might do that. :P and yes, this person, is emo, and shes awesome.

If Argie, Jacc, Britt, Justin werent here, than, i would be in a very miserable mood. So i thank them, for being here for me. They are some of the best people, anyone could ask for. I love them to bits. I will be here for them, as much as they are here for me.
Thank you guys !

Be Proud !

Little Info on me!

I made this blog space for my friend Jacc, she has troubles getting to my msn one, so... Heres another one!! :3

You guys can call me 'Neon' or 'Mello'... Mello has been my nickname for a long time... i originally got it from one of my friends because we watched alot of youtube videos and there was this couple... one of them was named Mellow and my friend said i looked like that person and i acted alot like them, and also because i was so Mellow... so yeahh thats where that nickname comes from... 'Neon' i got from another friend... because of my love towards neon stuff

I might seem like the 'emo' type, with my black hair, its naturally Dark Brown, which only looks black. My hair might be long, and cover my eyes from people seeing them, but i like my hair like this. I wear a lot of red, because red is my favourite colour, even though i am colour blind. I found out i was colour blind when i was nine i think. when my mother took me to see an eye docter, he obviously told us that i was colour blind. He said that when children are colour blind, its usually from a parent, like a trait i guess, but none of my parents were colour blind. So it was a 'odd' case. I usually wear jeans, a shirt (usually long sleeve, if not, i put a long sleeve on then a short sleeve ontop, or a short sleeve then a sweator x]) and a sweator... I have a love for sweators, so i own thousands of them. I liike very colourful shoes, my current shoes are a bright neon yellow. My clothes consist of 'Branded'... I dunno why... i just dont buy weird branded... or too common... 'Gap' and stuff... Skate brands mostly... DGK, DC, Element, Billabong,RDS, Circa, Zoo York (One of my favs!), Quiksilver, Hurley, Fox, etc...

I have a lot of friends ranging from different types of stereotypical groups. Like Michelle, she became more of a 'prep' and she doesnt hang out with Brittany and them anymore. Brittany and most of the group are 'stoners', me, i guess you could call me 'prep' but im not in the same prep group as michelle..

I have a love for Music<3 without music i dunno how i would get by as easily. I listen to many dfferent types of music. I listen to Techno (Hardstyle, Jumpstyle, Trance, Tecktonic, etc.), Hard rock, Metal, Hardcore Metal, Rap, Hip-hop, SOME country.. I dont really like country, cause to me, it sounds the same between songs (no offense to anyone who loves country)

So there you go, a little more about me! If you want to know even more! Ask in a comment, or something.